*Turns AirPods on Noise Cancellation*
Summer 2022… is it me or is Taylor Swift right when she said “August sipped away like a bottle of wine”? Maybe it’s the fact NASA claims Earth’s rotation is getting faster, or it’s the heatwave the East Coast is experiencing currently, or I’m just looking for an excuse for not posting for a while 🤷🏼♂️.
But, we can all agree times are changing.
“There's a balance in my life. There's reality, and there's the part that looks really glamorous, but we're all just people in the end.” Olivia Newton-John
You choose what to believe about a person. But, what matters is what you believe about yourself.
As a Pisces, some say I’m outspoken, emotional, a dreamer, a brat… I forget the rest because opinions are like assholes, everyone has them. In a world that we live in today you should be able to speak, react, and feel anyway you want with no sub-thought of whether anyone agrees with you or not.
“I’m bored.”
“This music sucks.”
“I’m going home.”
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I’m shaving my head.
Call it a Britney moment… but I call it a new start. An opportunity, or a drunk relationship with a beard razor that gave me the choice to cut off a part of me that because of social media made me feel I needed to be liked.
That action gave back to me something I’ve been missing - the love of myself. The love of my flaws, my scars of adolescence, my hairline, size of my nose… things edited out of photos because of an unrealistic societal image embedded in me. The thought’s I battle every night even in the comfort of my own BED.
In the moment it gave me a ‘high’… higher than any pill in the jungles of Tulum, or higher than John Travolta’s hairstyle in ‘Grease”. But, like any drug, there’s a half-life until you’re hangover reality hits.
When I woke the morning after I cried when I looked in the mirror. Not only because I realized I gave myself a bald spot - but because I finally saw myself, flaws and all - and I was afraid of letting go of who or what I perceived myself to be. I took a breath then cried because I was happy, and for the first time felt carefree. (Yes, I did call my barber with an SOS lol), but I’m not Batman so had to embrace it until an availability opened.
When you stop caring about what ‘YOU FEEL’ everyone thinks about you, it eliminates the inner expectation that leads to disappointment. Paint your nails, Shave your head, Set boundaries, and LIVE your life
So get ready, and saddle up because the new REAL George is here to stay.
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G